Monday, September 26, 2011
I don't see the point in pretending to be something I'm not, or to feel a way that I don't. I did that for almost a year, off and on, and I'm tired of it. You see, my ex boyfriend is my best friend. And there are days that I miss him quite a bit. There are days when I don't, when I want to just move on, when I want something new in my life. But you see, its not helping either of us when we don't speak to one another. In fact, I cannot see how that is a productive resolution following a very clean, very peaceful break up. If there is something I wish to share with him, after three years, I will share it with him, regardless of our history together. The worst pain following something like this is the restraint. Being in the same room and not speaking. Wishing the other could know about some aspect of your life but not sharing with them because "that's not what you do after a break up." Break ups have not worked well in the past when we cut each other out of our lives.